Blond guy from Taxas

There is a guy with blond hair from Texas.

Oh my goodness asian girls still having fantasy of Blond hair white skin and blue eyes. :)

You can imagine. :)

This guy is really cute though.

I was in the cafeteria and me and my friend sat behind him.

We looked each other and smiled. (If you know what this mean)

There are some guys from the States coming to our uni as an exchage student.

When I happen to walk across these fellows I feel strange and seem totally different from me.

I mean we look different right?

I can not believe it. After all thoes time with you. Blond brown curly hair blue green brown etc eyes white skin big eyes big nose ...

Maybe after all I am the asian girl with fantasy.

Maybe I can not hug you when I say goodbye like I did before.

I might not say 'bless you' or 'sorry'

I might not able to enjoy potato. (Don't know if I even liked it before :))

If we see each other after such a long time don't be offended I just need some time to rearrange my brain system. :)

I miss you.

especially today.

My trip to Germany 2006

My trip to Italy 2006

I like to move it move it

Do you remember this song?

I am doing a Sunday school these days and there is a boy name 'Ju hwan'
He is the nasty little boy. Nobody could actually control him.
One Sunday he ran to me and started to sing this song.
"Teacher Teacher, do you know this song? I like to move it move it~~~ "
Wow... I was amazed. And then he was telling me why we have to watch this movie after the semon for the whole day.
He still asks me if we could watch Madagasta after the sermon.
Funny right? :)

Unification

We roomates talked about the Unification with North Korea.
You may not understand but we don't really think about this topic as much as possibly others would think we would. Our Grandmothers and Grand fathers have families in North Korea but if that generation pass we don't really have a close relationship anymore such as related failies. In public they all say that they want unifiaction but in reality I can't really say they really want it. Some may don't want it and many of them may not even know if we need unification.
I am just thinking what will happen if we become one.
I can not imagine.
Really.
Some say it will happen soon. When Kim jung il dies? I don't know.
There are so many people over the world who thinks South Korea is not doing the best.
Hmmm...
What will happen to us?
What do you think about it?

금요일 밤

하루 하루가 지나가고 바쁜 삶의 연속은 나를 지치게 하지만 이것이 유일한 대안이었다는 것을 다시 한번 확인 시켜주는 것이었다. 삶이 어려울 때는 빨리 흘러가는 것이 유일한 대안이라고 생각하고 싶지는 않았다. 그런데 원래 그런가보다. 이겨내지 못할 것만 같았던 힘든 시간도 지나가고 그렇게 또 다시 극복해 나아가는구나. 한 사람을 사랑한다는 것이 얼마나 어려운 것인지 알게 되었고 사랑은 결코 나를 쉽게 찾아 오지 않을 것이란것도 안다. 누군가가 그리워서 보고싶다는 말도 아끼게 된다. 나의 삶은 어디로 흘러가는 것일까? 금요일 밤은 언제나 이렇게 흘러가는구나. 이러지도 못하고 저러지도 못하는 내 자신을 보면서 안타깝기도 하지만 이젠 지쳤음을 인정한다. 사랑이란 무엇일까? 다음에 내 마음을 움직이는 사람에게는 사랑한다는 말을 하고 싶다. 내 입에서 떨어지지 않으려는 그 말을... 그 말을... 이제는 그만 내 입을 떠났으면...

2007 My desk ready for Winter.

Falling slowly - Once

I don`t know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can`t react
And games that never amount
To more than they`re meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We`ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You`ve made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can`t go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I`m painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It`s time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We`ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You`ve made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We`ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You`ve made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I`ll sing along

I'm back from the class and listening to this song which will save me through this tough week.
I haven't seen the movie yet but yes I will after the mid term exam.
Such a beautiful song.

Love Actually

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Daniel : So what's the problem, Samuel? Is it just Mum or is it something else? Maybe... school - are you being bullied? Or is it something worse? Can you give me any clues at all?

Sam : You really want to know?

Daniel : I really want to know.

Sam : Even though you won't be able to do anything to help?

Daniel : Even if that's the case.

Sam : OK. The truth is actually... I'm in love.

Daniel : Sorry?

Sam : I know I should be thinking about Mum all the time, and I am. But the truth is I'm in love and I was before she died, and there's nothing I can do about it.

Daniel : Aren't you a bit young to be in love?

Sam : No.

Daniel : Oh, OK, right. Well, I'm a little relieved.

Sam : Why?

Daniel : Well, you know - I thought it might be something worse.

Sam : [incredulous] Worse than the total agony of being in love?

Daniel : Oh. No, you're right. Total agony.

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My pens

All of my pens in the pencil case. I have one strage habbit there if you can find.

The one on the very right is what Ruth sent me for a birthday present.

It is strange how you make a theory out of it. You can make so many theories of your own.

Here's mine. :)

Good day

I had a good day today talking with my roommates.
Talk Talk Talk ... Love it!

Reason to go to England again.

I really need a reason to go to England.
First it was becuase of my dad studying.
Second time it was being there as a voluntary helper.
This time I really need to do something more than just visiting friends.
I can not fly there just to stay for 2 days.
There are so many programmes about studying English for a short term but please I don't want to study English more. I have enough here already. I was thinking about maybe doing an internship but this is much more complicted than I thought. Besides there are not the perfect match of work I prefer to do. If someone has a good idea what I can do please let me know. I definately need some information.
If England is a island close to you I have one here as well. It's called 'Japan'. Oh yes it would be a tough choice for you to go to Japan. England is just like that for me so have pitty on this poor Korean girl.
Besides how can there possibly be Bulstrode reunited without Koreans. :)

I found really funny picture today

Guess what this picture is? :)

Do not love the world

Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the father is not in him. For everything in the world-the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does-comes not form the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever. 1John 2:15~17 (NIV)

one art , helicopter

One Art

Elizabeth Bishop

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

--Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

Helicopter -The feeling

My pianos out of tune
I wish it wasn’t
I wish that you were mine
I wish that my heart was stronger

My pianos out of tune
I wish it wasn’t
I wish we had more time
I wish that my world was softer
And I’m on a helicopter

I’ve had this feeling before
My heart is crawling in the mud, mud, mud
Id feel much better
I’m sure if I had a helicopter

This telephone’s out of use
I wish it wasn’t
I wish you loved me more
I wish that your world was closer

This telephone’s out of use
I wish somebody would take me to your door
I wish that my world was finer
And we were on an ocean liner

I’ve had this feeling before
My heart is crawling in the mud, mud, mud
Id feel much better
I’m sure if I had an ocean liner

My pianos out of tune
I wish it wasn’t
I wish we had more time
I wish that my world was softer
And I’m on a helicopter

I’m on a helicopter

I’ve had this feeling before
My heart is crawling in the mud, mud, mud
Id feel much better
I’m sure if I had a helicopter,
if I had a helicopter
My heart is crawling in the mud, mud, mud
My heart is crawling in the mud, mud, mud
Mud, Mud..

Oh yes he has done it!

God has done such an amazing thing in my life.
You won't know how much I am happy.
Now I finally see myself.
I want to tell you guys how thankful I am.
I love you guys! I am happy that I can be totally free.

I knew I loved you.

Ennio Morricone is coming to Seoul.
I really want to be there. I really hope I could.

Today's Sermon

"Christian Courage"

2Timothy 1:3~8

I thank God, whom I serve, as my forefathers did, with a clear conscience, as night and day I constantly remember you in my prayers. Recalling your tears, I long to see you, so that I may be filled with joy. I have been reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and in your mother Eunice and, I am persuaded, now lives in you also.
For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self discipline. So do not be ashamed to testify about our Lord, or shamed of me his prisoner. But join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God,


1. We are encouraged by others.

We need paul, Timothy in our lives.
To remind ourselves.
Every great man of faith had people helping them, encouraging them.
Live life together.
You need Spiritual friend.
Don't let yourself isolated.

2.We are encouraged by faith in Jesus

1)Sincere faith
2)Sincere faith handed down

Why are you so afraid?

3.We are encouraged by the holy spirit.

1)Gifts for his ministry
2)Spirit from God - of power, love and wisdom

Use what God has already given you.
Fan into flame.
'laying on of my hands'

I made a short memo during the sermon.
It healed my heart and I am really thankful to God that he is really doing amazing things in my life.

Peace in my mind.

So who won't need peace in their mind?
But there is only one way to find peace.
God is the only way.
I shouldn't forget this. Nobody should.
I didn't want to show my embarassing situation.
Sometimes you have to try to show your feelings.
If you keep it with you it only comes out as an anger, sad tears, lazyness...
Yes Saila I am not strong but God is and I live in Him.
Yes He is.

눈물

I tend to express my feelings in Korean so that is why there are lot of things posted in Korean. Don't try to read them you can't understand. :)
I will tell you right here in English.
I was reading a thesis about 'Behavioral pattern of apartment residents in macro perspective and usage of and need for community facilities'. Sounds really something but it was not a big deal actually quite simple.
Anyhow this is not a problem.

I had meeting with head leaders in our school because my lovely dear leader in our team had things to do so I had to attend because I am the assistent of my head leader. Actually I had a good meal and good leacture about leadership. Listening to the regulations were so boring as you can imagine. But I had good time there. Met a nice guy next to me who was really talkative. He had 2 accidents on his bike because of cars.

hmmm... well... the most important thing of today was that the lecture of leadership was so nice. I realized that I completly lost my self esteem. I was so sad that I wanted to cry. You know I am a major weeper. :) Lately I cried a lot. I can't help myself crying. I definately need some help. I become setimental so easily. People say I am strong and I am. But I am getting weaker and weaker everyday. I think losing my self esteem could be one of the most fact of being like this.

뜨거운 눈물이 흐른다. 그 열은 내 차가운 마음에 의해 차갑디 차갑게 내 피부 속으로 스며든다.
마음이 아프다. 흐르는 내 눈물이 원망스럽다.